Depression is...

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Depression is...


feeling alone in a room full of people

feeling like you don’t belong

feeling an overbearing guilt for the way you behave and the person you are

feeling like you can’t connect with the close people in your life

feeling like you have to fight it alone

feeling like you don’t have answers to questions until it’s too late to answer them

feeling like a heavy burden to everyone around you

feeling like it’s all your fault

feeling like there is no end to it

feeling despair when work mounts up

feeling furious at people who try to normalise mental ill health to make themselves feel unhindered

feeling indecisive about what’s right for you and what’s wrong for you

feeling like you can’t answer the phone. Even the office phone

feeling anxious when you bump into someone you should say hello to

feeling trapped in social situations

feeling no desire to eat three meals a day

feeling like you can’t be bothered to shower or take the bins out

feeling exhausted because you have to smile

feeling overwhelmed when you’re at work

feeling your body getting weaker and weaker

feeling ostracised at work for questioning poor decisions

feeling no motivation whatsoever for fitness

feeling extreme anger at people who say ‘choose happiness’

feeling extreme anger at people who say it is weak to stay silent

feeling your mind cracking in half

feeling infuriated because people you work with only care about themselves or an easy ride

feeling no joy in the things that should make you glow

feeling like you have to psych yourself up to step into your place of work

feeling the need to nap during the day, in reality it’s just to get away from situations

feeling like there’s no point in celebrating successes

feeling overwhelmed because you can’t think straight, even with basic tasks

feeling anxious about going to bed because you know you won’t drop off to sleep soon

feeling unjustifiably angry at people who don’t treat you well

feeling an uncontrollable desire to binge drink

feeling like it is impossible to maintain professionalism with toxic people

feeling worried about waking up at 2am because you know you’ll stay awake

feeling like you haven’t had a good nights sleep for as long as you can remember

feeling like your self help cognitive behavioural therapy isn’t working or can’t defeat your ills

feeling like the good people in your life don’t really care about you

feeling like no matter what you do, you can’t win

feeling despair at how badly treated you are at work for doing the right things

feeling like your friends and family would be better off without you

feeling a strong desire for a bus to flatten you on your cycle into work

feeling like it’s getting worse and worse

feeling like you just want it to end.


Getting better starts with finding the reason to want to talk… and then telling someone the truth. All of it.


Only then can you start to undo the things you’re grappling with.


Talk to someone you can trust. Get the help you need and deserve.


Don’t think, just do. Today.


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